Today I write from a place of tremendous gratitude. The “fog” is slowly lifting & as always I’m slowly getting back to my old self. And on Christmas eve no less! The day most people could get in to or stay in a funk. I refuse to stay there & whenever I begin to get stuck in my head I go back to my gratitude list. It always, always lifts me up.
As I walked to Starbucks for coffee & yogurt I let the sunshine pour over me & I was grateful to live in the neighborhood I do. I started visualizing a place of my own 2 years ago, definitely in the South End, but nothing as lovely as I have today. For that I am grateful.
These past few weeks I’ve been writing about my depression & anxiety & all kinds of friends have reached out to offer their support even if only in a quick message. For them I am grateful.
Returning to photography as a creative outlet has been a boon to getting out of my own head. It provides a sense of seeing the world as it is not merely as I perceive it to be. In a way it helps chronicle the good things in my life so I can remind myself to keep going. To take in the beauty that is the city I love to call home, Boston. For that I am grateful.
My cats, even all their quirkiness & sometimes extra effort of stomach problems, seem to know when I need some attention. And in turn they too are something I couldn’t be without. “Chubby” aka “Louise” just came over & licked my hair as I sit here on the sofa. She’s odd that way but it’s what makes her unique. For them I am grateful.
Who truly knows why we get in deep funks sometimes. I suppose for someone like me it can be related to biology but we’re complex beings. We have a lot of external forces pushing & pulling at us on a daily basis. It does get better, everything does, or at least I like to hope that’s true for most people. Today is a good day, I’ve taken action that needed to be taken & it’s an improvement from days ago. For that I am grateful.
You know what else I am grateful for? Peggy Lee‘s Christmas album which is playing on my iPhone at the moment. Corny I know but it’s never too late to get the Christmass spirit. For that I am grateful.
I’ll await my grocery delivery today for the rack of lamb I’ll be making for dinner tonight. I’ve never made a cherry pie either but that should be fun. I’m sure the kitties will be under foot wondering what all the fuss is about but I’ll be happy. Peapod Online Delivery, I am grateful for you as well. 😉
Merry Christmas everyone!!!